Whitney Houston

I swear whenever I hear that woman's voice it sounds like the gates of heaven are open. I feel like, even if you don't believe in God, once you hear that woman sing, you may have to second guess your unbelief. Often times when people with such a great annointing/gift when they die, I have a hard time excepting the fact that they're dead.

Nontheless! We love you Whitney. I wish I could have met you to tell you how influential your voice is and to also thankyou for bringing "church" to all the non believers.

Tear Drop

although this song is upbeat....if you're going through this...it makes you sad...

2 school buses crash into Semi

GRAY SUMMIT, MO (KTVI-FOX2now.com) - Update - 11:40 Two people have been confirmed dead, according to the Missouri Department of Transportation. The parent of a student on board a wrecked school bus says the bus in front of his slammed into a car and a tractor trailer. The students are from St. James High school and are members of the band. The Missouri State Highway Patrol says they believe there is one fatality and are still working the accident. Several students have been transported to area hospitals. Pictures from SkyFOX show at least seven children being taken away on stretchers. Other students have been put on a charter bus. It happened just before 10:30 a.m. on Interstate 44 and Highway 100 near Gray Summit. The children were reportedly heading to Six Flags. The band's website says this is their annual trip to Six Flags.






Two school buses are reportedly involved. One of the buses involved was carrying around 50 children. One patient had to be airlifted from the scene to St. John's Mercy Medical Center. The eastbound lanes of Interstate 44 are closed. There is about a two-mile backup.

Old Aubrey (before all the plastic & glister)

Remember this?

Skip to 0:50
That's when the song I want you to hear starts. Or listen to the whole thing, your choice. Whatever.

T H E T R U T H .

Some days I wonder about the day I'll truly be happy. The day I'll wake up with a smile on my face and happiness in my heart. When I'll meet someone whose happy to see me. Happy that I'm alive, that I exist. I often wonder if this day will ever happen. Will I ever be happy? Or will these sad days repeat itself? Forever wondering. Forever wishing and dreaming. Forever crying.

Warm tears run down my face. My heart weighs a ton. My body is weak and I gasp for air. I tell God I'm sick of crying. I don't wanna cry no more. Won't you dry my eyes? You don't see me, your daughter crying? Then I think, maybe God doesn't think I deserve happiness. I don't deserve to be loved. I don't deserve what I pray for. And so, my tears dry. And I stop believing in love. I stop asking God for it. And I accept what I believe is true.

Yay.!

Today was my mom's last Radiation Treatment. She was diagnosed with breat cancer back in October-November-ish. So yeah we've been dealing with that. But, she's fine. She already went through the Chemo and now she's done with the radiation. I never really worried too much about her well-being. I mean, don't get me wrong, I had my moments when I would be like, "OMG what if she dies" but that was only for like a quick second. I guess I just knew that God had her back. And he did. So now, I'm thinking about going to DePaul for PreMed. I'm going to be an Oncologist-a branch of medicine that deals with tumors or, cancer. I wanna see people fight their way outta cancer. And I'll be there to encouage them when they get weak. Being Cancer Free is possible. It's not just a dream.

The Hills Series Finale

So tomorrow is the series finale of The Hills. I'm kinda sad because I've been watching these people for a long time. Like Laguna Beach long time. I remember when I first "met" Kristen Cavallari on Laguna Beach. I could not stand that girl. She was like THEE FEMALE DOG. And I loved Stephen and Lauren. I thought they were the cutest...couple? or whatever they were. I loved those two! I hated it when Stephen would run back and forth between Lauren and Kristen. I kinda like it when Lauren was with Jason. But then he started trippin again.
Does anybody else think Heidi and Spencer aka "Speidi" are crazy? Or is it just me? They need therapy and a couple other things. Especially Spencer. He needs to be in a psychiatric ward lol. Then, we were REintroduced to Kristen. I thought I would hate her like I did on Laguna Beach but I didn't. She wasn't that bad. I actually liked her. I thought it was funny how all the girls on the show had to have some sort of contact with Kristen. If they couldn't be her friend, then they had to be her enemy. As long as they were in her presence, they were okay, lmbo. 

The end of a Chapter...

I just got through watchin High School Musical 3 on disney channel and something click'd in my head...I'm movin out next August. And, I guess for most people that's exciting. And it is for me too but, that'll also mean that I could do somethin that would COMPLETELY destroy my life. Such as, meeting the wrong people, sleepin with the wrong dude, goin to the wrong party. All this scares me! I don't believe in actin like somethin I'm not. I don't wanna pretend like I'm all mature or "holier than thou"...cuz I'm not. I'm a 17 year old girl who is terrified of what's next. I don't like not knowin what's going to happen. It's like, yesterday I was 3 years old watchin Barney...and today I'm lookin at colleges to go to. I AM excited, but I'm also scared because..I don't wanna mess up. I just pray that God keeps me as I move forward. And that I don't meet the wrong people, and that I don't make dumb decisions.

Boredom in 1st Hour

(I couldn't find girls track)

(Go Ron!)

So...it's Wednesday, April 21, 2010...and I'm sittin in Mr. Farrar class bored. The one day I want something to do in this class, it ain't nothin to do!

In other news...
Yesterday 3 local high schools, Hazelwood East, West, and Central, ran...THE TRI-MEET. East ran a couple of races against themselves as other schools did. && one of east's BEAST'S(ME) was injured after her open 400m. She came in 3rd though.

Just kidding. But I did sit out for the rest of my races which I was upset about because the one I actually wanted to run, I couldn't. And I really did come in third, almost had second but i didn't have enough kick left. That morning I started off with FOUR races, open 100m, open 2, open 4, and the  4x4<---- the one I wanted. If I hadn't of ran the open 4, I would have been able to run the 4x4.
&& Today...well...let's start with last night. Last night I barely slept because my shins were throbbing! Then! They went from throbbing to this constant pressure that stayed there for hours. I got out the bed at 2:47, (thinkin it was like 5am) to use the restroom. But I didn't walk to the bathroom...I CRAWLED! Then when I finally started to get some sleep, my alarm clock went off. By then, my shin weren't throbbing anymore but I still limped to the bathroom. Then I limped down stairs to get my clothes out the dryer. Then I limped back upstirrs (STL acsent) to my room to put my clothes on. Which is extrmely hard when one of your legs is good for nothin. Then I limped to the bus stop and on to school.

&& that was my day so far...

RIP Cordell "Luh Fella" Moore

At the start of Spring Break, we lost the light of our day
The kid that made us smile
The boy that made us all happy

Our days became dark
and our hearts became heavy
Our legs began to drag
as our minds began to scramble

Your smile will never leave us
and never will your voice

With your elf like ears
and your curly mohawk
You grabbed the hearts of us all
and squeezed it real tight

And as we walk through the hallways of Hazelwood East
we'll be struck with our memories of you posted against the lockers

And we promise as a whole, that you will never be lost in our memories
For how can such a bright light be lost darkness

Heavy Heart

My heart is heavy
My eyes are low
From my heart comes warm tears
My mind is confused, it doesn't understand
Why does this keep happening?
I don't deserve this, what did i do?

Dear Haiti

Dear Haiti,

My heart goes out to the entire country. I pray that you will come back from these hard times and your hearts will be even stronger. Do not give up on life. Keep pushing. I do not know what it is like to be involved in a nature disaster such as this. I don't know what it's like to depend on other people to survive. I don't know what it's like not to have water, soap, food or shelter. All I can do is imagine. I pray that your country makes it out. I pray that what's needed is given. And I pray that countries will use this as an example to help others and stop being greedy.

Sincerly,

LaVonia

But I'll love you forever if you give me a chance
Our friendship would be our foundation
Young and restless, but I'm wise beyond my years
Finding you would be a dream come true
Remember your last? I'm better than her
I'll make you happy, your heart would overflow
End your search, because I'm here
Never let me go, because I'm special
Do you think you can handle me?

Though my heart is broken, I still want to try
Running from my past is a never ending marathon
Unlike me to be so cruel
Scars runs deep
The river of tears has run dry

What'chu think this was?
I'ont like you, I'ont want'chu
Never was I interested
Though I must admit, there is a hidden attraction
Every squeeze you give me triggers something
Rough hands turn me OFF
Ha! I'ont care about yo mind
Emittin' my ISH, for just a moment of pleasure
Attractions for you are hidden
Talking is out of the question, just let me get my ISH off on you