Recently I had to let go of someone that was extremely important to me
I couldn't understand what the issue was
I still can't
But for now, I have to let go because holding on hurts to bad
I hope you understand
Because my bible tells me that those who wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength
The text says they shall mount up with wings as eagles
they shall run and not be weary
they shall walk
and not faint
...
Ya see
I can't see our future
I don't even know if our future will be OUR future
All I know is our today is not OUR today
And today I'm standing still
Encouraged that whatever the outcome
I'll be alright
And you will too
Because I love you
And I don't ever want to see you hurt because of my selfishness
I must become selfless
Yesterday I cried because I missed you
I miss the old you
How we used to laugh and joke
How when I thought of you a smile would spread across my face
But
Those heartfelt smiles
Became the heavy weighing frowns
that brought warm tears
...
I'm still standing
I'm waiting on God to make his decision
God already knows what I want
You
And he knows what he wants
...
I miss you
But if thats not the plan
We must except it because the final decision lyes in His hands
Not ours
He will
Have His Will